hmm.. a rather emotional night... good morning all readers!! ^^
have you ever been cast into the shadows of yoour friends? have you not been acknowledged for your work? if you have, welcome to the club. i've been thinking about my life yesterday night regarding sec, poly life.. realized that i've never been acknowledged for my work.. it all started with the np soleil committee interview.. i've not been assigned to any post which means that i'm not selected whereas my friend is.. hmm.. not that it's a big ddeal but.. not exactly a very good feeling.. sec school i remembered one cme proj, cause my friend didn't do the work hence i initiated to do it since it was a drawing proj, i of course DIDN'T do a good job.. once i showed my friend my work, my friend was like.. showing disapproval.. of course anyone would be sad at that time hence i crushed my work and threw it away.. thus my friend approached another friend whose art is WAYYYY better than mine but luckily i've got a friend who actually supported me cause my that friend feels sorry for me i guess.. poly, i felt that i've never been acknowledged for my work.. everytime my work is been despised or so.. no one every pat me on the shoulder and say " good job ben".. oh! there's once when i was rewarded with that.. imagine coming april i'm gonna be yr 3 and yet only once.. i mean not that i want that but.. there's actually one who'd appreciate my work.. perhaps my friends are too shy or so but still, once.. how pathetic..
Off to chinese garden..! buzz off.. ~~
apparently, dear's been sulking because she made a lot of mistakes as told by her on friday during work. Hence me being the oh so useless bf, couldnt help her cheer up or anything hence, our relationship is a little strained or say, VERY strained these 2 days or so. Hmm.. Always heard people say cherish what you have now blah blah blah but how many people could actually do it? 1 out of 10? WHATEVER man! REALLY!
The stress limit is munching at my sanity - env 16 bloody chps. 16! Major stress out considering the fact that i must do quite well before i'm able to maintain my GPA. Fish head lah! Yr 3 is even worst. 6 month attachment? shit man! 6 wks cptc already sian liao loh. Maybe i should put shitty life of mine instead of my lonely self. Ha..! Moreover, the bastardy blogger don't allow me to keep my old blogger account force me to change! AHHH.. agony.! fricking shit! Damn sian.
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ooo.. something to cheer ppl up. Lunch at basil alcove again.! will keep you guys suspended until i get the pics from lao er.
it's been such an hectic week.. test test and more test.. projects dateline keep coming.. ended up everyone spent.. seriously, think i'm gonna fall sick soon.. not having enough sleep these days.. heard from vivien that my hysis test not very good.. die sia.. i tot still ok de loh then like this leh.. hmm.. having bit of prob with dear these few days.. not treating her right things like that.. is it because of the 1 yr relationship "sure break" curse.. Like what wendy(xiaxue) mentioned on her blog.. the 1 yr "sure break" curse... hmm.. kinda bad i guess.. dear also i think quite fed up with me.. sorry sorry.. mood very bad these days.. too stress up.. super sian.. i've always been wondering, will dear be better off with another guy.. perhaps it'll be.. perhaps... him? ha.. such irony.. dislike became consideration.. perhaps he's the one? haha.. like so.. mystical.. the one.. you're the one.. Ah! neo from matrrix.. HAHAHA... *cold* anywayz, my proposal to start a sarong party boy blog has not been rejected by anyone YET.. hahaa.. cool eh.. wear sarong de leh.. then go zouk clad in sarong blow whistle.. hehe..=x scarly start sarong fever in sg..!! haha.. the sarong seller better thank me if that happens man seriously.. if not... hehe.. i'm gonna burn his sarong man!
Com is having prob.. another prob.. why so many prob.. mentally exhausting.. really..~~
status: tired; heartbroken
