I see sorrow in ure eyes.
Hunger,fear mixed with a sense of trepidation.
Left ta fend on ure own.
Mistreated,looked dwn,treated like filth.

I onli haf 1 word ta describe my day:tired.

Haf u think of whether if u seriously like tt person when u became his or her bf or gf?Wad is lurve?Wad was it like to be in luv?It's my fault,everything's my fault.I'm taking it as a nightmare and I've awoken frm it.A brand new start for me.A brand new day.No more nightmares for me.Only gd drms.Hate me everyone,jux like he does.Jux hate me.

Nonetheless,I realli wanna thank you for all the support u've given me.Advices and thinking for me by hidin the truth.

Why did u asked mi out when u dun like me anymore?Do u think tt by extending the truth will help me?Help me in my prelims?Lemme tell u,ur wrong,damn wrong.Do u know tt everytime i see tt kind of reply,it hurt me.Did u remember hw mani times u sent me those type of msges?Everytime i sent u a msg,i was full of hope,trying ta cheer u up.Did u ever appreciate it?I dun pursue tt matter.When u asked me out,i was over the moon cos i tot tt everything is fine.I noe I'm a jinx,i brought u trouble everytime.Haf u ever considered hw i felt when i seems ta jinx u.Do u think i felt gd?It hurts me everytime.I'm nt blaming u or anything but I'm jux depressed tt even someone else noes,but nt me!I'm still in the dark,waiting for u ta save me frm the dark rm.Frm the darkness.But u nv came.I try ta brk through myself and u were nv trying ta help me or save me.I'm all by myself.All alone,fending for myself.Do u think i felt gd?Perhaps u felt bad too but at least tell me.Tell me wad u feel.I cant read minds.I cant read through ur mind.I noe i dun fit ur requirements but at least tell me right frm the start.Be truthful is all I wanted.All I want is the truth.Nth but the truth.I dun hate u at all.Seriously,i dun.I noe wad I'm.Nw tt it's all over,i still dun get it.Short pain is better den long pain.If u dun like me anymore in the first place,tell me so.No matter wad,I can take it.I'm always hopeful tt we can be like last time before we drifted apart.I keep asking myself wad did i do wrongly ta incur ur wrath,to treat me like this.I told u before tt if there's anything,jux tell me straight but hw long did it took u ta tell me the truth?5 months!5 damned months!Do u noe wad I'm going through the 5 months!?I was still kept in the dark.All alone.Fending for myself with no one ta save me.I was waiting for u,onli u.Bt u nv came.U nv came ta rescue me.Nv.................

Todae went xmas shopping with vic..Bought a lot of things den my old wallet zip broke!Darn,lucky i gt a new wan!Wahahaha..VEri fun today,tok like siao,sit there till butt pain den finally..saw tt guy!Damn him manx!HE was LOOKING at us like we're some sort of RUNAWAYS!THink we illegal immigrants ahx!Sit there got crime ahX!BAKA!Idiotic...know a bit bit things here and there..legs damn sore..raining somemore!WAH,SIANX!MY shoe and jeans all WET!REally SIANX!Saw vic's sis....tt's all lahx..wahahaha...


Signing off,
BEnjaja

Walking amongst the elites.

Stupid blanganesh!BAKA!BAKA!BAKA!Think his ang moh so kiang!!!BAKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I dun even uds!Tok shoooooo loudly for wad!SO fierce for wad!I dun uds got crime ahx!BAKA!hmph~!

The boss of tai yong is soooooo 'DAO'!Hmph~!Tell him sth den he like dun care abt me wan!Agh!!Damn tt forklift driver at the DTM cocoa factory!Dyed hair so wad!Act ang moh lahx!!So hao lian!Arrogant!Wad an ass manx!Burn his hair ahx!Make him become botak!Cannot dye hair liaox!!Muhahaha....*%$#^%&^&%* stupid fork lift driver.


Arrogance will get u nowhere but honesty will get u somewhere.
Try to be honest and be more modest.
Dun try to act smart and be less modest.

Gt gd news and i maybe can put braces.Hope for the best.Read sth frm my fren and found out tt she's the same as him.Frens...y is it so hard ta be frens..no betrays,trust,privacy and support.Is everyone asking so much of their frens?I doubt it manx,i doubt it.It takes 2 hands ta clap,so if 1 hand is crippled,no sound will come out of it.Obviously,the hand has ta find another gd new ta create sound by clapping."Best frens."Is there ever such ppl ard,I wonder.


The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....Yet regardless if you love them,hate them,wish they would die or know that you would die without them ...it matters not.Because once in your life,whatever they were to the world they become everything to you.When you look them in the eyes,traveling tothe depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound,you know that your own life is inevitable consumedwithin the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.We love them for a million reasons,No paper would do it justice.It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.A feeling.Only felt.

Tkd class,made some blunders.Veri malu.Pattern damn high,going crazy soon.*shUsh.........*


Blunders are common, but not an excuse.
Solve it, and it'll be used.
Forgive and forget is the best,
Without caring about the rest.
Forgiveness will be given to thy hu deserved it.
Turn over a new leaf and start afresh.
As those hu cant forgive and forget, join the mesh.

I'm unable ta put dwn everything.
I cant seems ta move on.
My frens are leaving one by one.
But I'll put dwn everything and move on.
Loner forever.




Life is but a game,
and so do luv.
I'm cold blooded,
and had no hold.
Sld thy rescue me,
brking into my soul and warming mi once..again.